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Friday, June 18, 2004

Okay, i'm trying to look at it in the right perspective and not gonna be complaining on my problems rite now. So to solve this problem is to know wat the problem is.

The problem: I'm stuck at home with no food and no money because my parents has just left me with no food and no money when they enjoyed themselves by travelling to Melaka without telling me. Ok maybe they did, but i wasn't even awake, more like half asleep.

How to tackle this problem: I'll just have to make do with the food that i have rite now even if its frigging cold and not nice at all. I'll just have to wait for my sis to arrive home later on midnight and ask her about the money my parents left behind too. Ok problem managed.

Manz, and i wasted my time being frigging angry over my parents for leaving me behind with no food and money. To add salt to the wound, they took away my NETS card which i reallie depeneds on for my daily bucks. But since they took it away, too bad then. Meaning i have to stay at home and rot.

I don't feel like talking about how lousy my day was cause the more i think abt it, the more i'm gonna get pissed off. My stomaches rumbling and my body is sore and all. Well, after all this predicament, i don't think i have anything to talk about or my usual stuff. Lol, i hate talking abt my life cause its very boring.

Ok maybe i do have something to talk about.

Sometimes when u look at someone, u don't reallie noe wat kind of person he or she reallie is. Considering i have double personality when the situation needs, i kinda start thinking whether other people have this similar take on their life. To start things off is to why i take two personality. Basically, the public image and the personal image are two different things for me. Naturally, i'm quite a serious person, with way too mature thinking and always has headaches when i think abt serious stuff and all. This side of me is onlie seen in MSN or to close people that i trust. Eventhough people say that u have to be urself in public so that people can accept u. But after trying to act my personal self in public, its reallie hard becoz most of the people i'm with is too naive or they are just too happy go lucky to take a closer look on life. My Serious take on things kinda put things off the balance since not many people can agree with the stand that i take. So basically, there comes the second personality that i make for myself. The public self that i make for myself, u guessed it. The crazy me who doesn't think twice to do stuff. Doing stupid stuff as if its no ones business. But sometimes i can't put up the charade cause the self within me boils to emerge out. So sometimes, when i'm crazy at one point, i'd get reallie depress and reallie angry the next minute becoz the public image i put up is contradicting the inner self in me. The inner conflict that keeps on brewing starts to get out of hand and affects me by making me depress.

So i wonder if people out there have this same situation as i do. But i wonder if i'm just too stupid to think that i'm the onlie one having these kind of things.

Lol, that doesn't make much sense anyway, just wanna let it all out.

arfandi used up his time at 7:29 PM