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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Three practicals in three consecutive days. Not reallie whining since i kinda enjoy doing these practical stuff. Just that the datasheet that is needed to be submitted after two weeks of completion of experiement is very strenous.

Well, todae is Teacher's Day. Not reallie teachers day as its actuallie falls on Sept 1. Its just that we celebrate it one day earlier as theres no way for us to reach them on Sept 1 as they are on holidae. Decided on going back to school, Kranji Secondary School eventhough i hated that place as long as i remember. Still, without that place, i'm no where near where i am now. So gotta give some or maybe a minute gratitification to the teachers who has taught me in school before even if i was never a pearl in ur eyes. Happy Teacher's Day. I'm not one to be reallie excited abt these kind of stuff. Since when am i overexcited over anything? Well maybe i do when i'm in the hyper mode. But in serious mode, nopes, nada, zilch.

Kinda left SP prematurely before my whole class ended officially todae cause i wanted to visit the teachers. Most of my classmates didn't came or came but left early also, which same goes to me. Left school with Ridzwan, Fadhli Jambul and Abid. Abid went back to YJC which is weird since he onlie spent 3 months there. Met up with Sazali, Gopal and Syazwan in Choa Chu Kang so that we cud rendezvous to our designated position together. The school was a total havoc i tell you. Students teachers, ok mostly students. Seeing them in uniforms makes me flinched a lil as i was accustomized to wearing outside clothes already.

Met urmz, ok which was the first person i met. Ok, unintentionally met Miss Losiny. Then went up to second floor to meet the teachers. Met Miss Lai as she was making her escape but was stopped by Gopal and Sazali, too baad. Met alot of secondary school friends though wasn't reallie interested with them. Met Miss Sim, Mrs Ram, Ms Amy New(who just divorced), etc. Can't realie remember quite clearly who i met with.

Played a couple of pool games and returned to Kranji again with Hafiz and Syazwan. Chatted with Mrs Ratna for a while. Didn't realise she was that friendly cause well i had a kind of senseles dislike for her. Can't reallie explain why. Maybe i judged her without knowing who she reallie is. Went back with Hafiz rite after that.

Todae's been great though cause well, it does tell me how unpopular i am when i shut myself up and try to live alone and by myself. Note to myself, open up so that people know that are able to receive their love, Then u'll realise how rich this world is with people that brings memories. Signing off and Happy Teachers Day.

arfandi used up his time at 6:21 PM

Monday, August 30, 2004

Song created by my band. Kinda proud of it as i created it majorly with the help of the bassist, Firdaus and singer and drummer, Fadhli and Sazali, who made this song the way it is now. Still in the process of recording and perfecting but we're very excited on this project of ours. Glimpse on the lyrics here we go.

WHY - SLIPSHOT

Music By- Arfandi, Firdaus, Sazali

Lyrics - Firdaus, Fadhli

You call me up all the time

You're just trying to make me cry

What the fuck did i ever do to you

For all this shit you're putting me through

You think it's funny but the joke's on you

I already know what i'm gonna do

I don't care i don't care anyway

U can just get the hell out of my way..

*(Chorus)*

(why...)Why.. Life is so cruel to me..

(I...)Im having doubts and it makes me sick..

(Why...)Why.. should i care about this..

(I...)I Feel that this isn't real...

All you ever do is waste my time

Well i don't wanna hear your voice

You musta think i give a damn about you

Why don't you come on and see if i do

But you can't understand why

No i don't like you so don't waste my time

I'm sick of your stories i'm sick of your shit

I'm sick of your face so shut up and quit

You always have to act like u're a sweetie

But you aint gettin my sympathy

*Chorus*

Interlude

*Chorus*

(Bass Solo)Harmony of Two Guitars, Bass And Drums

End Of Song

To me its kinda nice, well so does my band members too. Can't wait to get this song perfected.

arfandi used up his time at 9:50 PM

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Yet again, a post which is due a long time ago. Well, its my blog and it depends on how actively i want to update. Lol, why do i always feel that everyone will get angry if i don't update my blog.(pst pst.. they did told u why the heck u didn't update so does that count as getting angry?). Urmz, yeah ok.

This edition of my post will be a well planned and well thought out as i have announced in my previous posts. So well here it goes.

Sarcasm. The ability to use word as an offensive method to go against someone which u feel that their opinions is disagreeable. Or in nowadays context, used as a joke. I maybe be bias in this discussion about sarcasm because personally, i hate sarcasm in any form because it is entirely unnecessary and childish to be acting that way. Anything can be solved through discussion and compromising. Well, unless it gets ugly and people takes arm and kill people to gain wat they want, which is the extreme context if a discussion goes wrong.

As usual, there are pros and cons to almost everything. Well i would like to say that there must be a reason as to why people would depend on sarcasm to defend themself.

Sarcasm is used to defend themself as it is harmless yet powerful when used against someone with a weak mentality and emotional capacity. To use an information or so called 'weakness' of ur opponent, twist it in a way where it is to the users advantage thus gaining a higher chance of winning against the opponent. Sure, it does sounds wise to solve something without using the fist but as you know, when this skill is use as a weapon to intimidate someone else or to ruin a person's life, it does makes us think whether this sarcastic behaviour should be allowed.

As all good things that comes out from man, there will be a certain individual who will abuse it. So goes for sarcasm. Using it to pin point someone weaknesses, attacks it with every personal insult that a man can think, leaving it wrecked by the end the whole ordeal is done. Well, that is kinda way off the topic but let me relate that to the topic again. To be sarcastic, u have to pinpoint a weakness of the person u want to destroy. Thus by doing that, u can indirectly prod on it until the person feels that he/she is being intimidated. Continuous sarcasm on the person's weakness will cause that person to feel angered and embarassed, making the person have low self esteem thus destroying the person with further sarcasm attacks. Get what i mean?

Thus, the main topic here is about how a person uses a skill and for wat purpose, what intention. Its sad to say that nowadays it is being abused rather than used for self defense. Whichever way u put it, sarcasm is somewhat of a weapon. Used to protect urself, by in order to do so, injuring the person who is trying to injure u. Abused, it is used to destroy someone else. Thus no matter how u see sarcasm, no matter how u see that sarcasm is necessary to protect ourself, it is still an offensive skill, meant to hurt someone either way. In conclusion, if sarcasm can cause these kind of thing, any utilising of it comes with the intention of hurting someone else. Thus, shouldn't this sarcasm be avoided? My personal opinion, i think we should avoid using sarcasm as discussed above considering there are other ways to resolve something.

Gahah, well that sounds like social studies, but trying to discuss the need of sarcasm in everyday life. My personal opinion should be respected so that i can respect ur personal opinion. Drop comments if u have different opinon.

arfandi used up his time at 9:08 PM

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Ok, posts for this site is kinda due anyway. Truthfully, if u guys were expecting me to be actively posting on this blog, think again. I'm lazy like an ass and not reallie making an effort to change. Sometimes when u posts too much, it becomes rather strenous to read anyway. Well, that depends anyway. Some blog are nice cause theres alot of posts and alot to read. Just that mind, each posts, there are much to be discuss about.

Considering this post is gonna be the old wat i did todae and why i think its a day to be remembered. Ok, my memories not that great anyway. So a large chunk of information is kinda left out anyway.

Well, yesterdae was great anyway. Went out with someone and well not much happened but sometimes moderate is sufficient. didn't expect alot out of the date anyway. Then overnite at Rauff's house for the nite cause it was damn late and i was damn lazy to go back home.

Woke up in the noon todae and got ready to go back home to get my soccer gears and all. Got everything and left for Choa Chu Kang to meet them all. Thought it was gonna read cause the clouds were dark and all. Reached Redhill and luckily it didn't rain. It was about to rain but the clouds knew better than to do that. They'll face my wrath sooner or later if they did.

The match was ok i guess, we managed to beat them 10-3. Quite an achievement but we would have done better if we had kept a cleansheet. Felt reallie pissed of at the end of the match and also becoz of the audience. No wonder i hate audiences, i've never liked them since the day i started playing soccer. They were a menace and of no help at all. Their support is insignificant and they can go to hell for all i care(except for Li Hang's gerlfriend who came, u were ok.).

Went to play pool with them, not reallie in the mood actuallie. The last thing i would wanna play pool is with Gopal or Hafiz considering they are always out for a win. Don't ask me why i dislike people like them in these kind of activities. It just takes out the fun in any game.

So got back home and all, and felt reallie sucky. Surfed Fir's site and its all change, kinda felt discredited cause i did helped him alot back then when he started having a blog. Well, i dun reallie care anyway about compliments. When u start expecting people to compliment everything that u do, u just noe that person is a stranger.

So yeah, some pointless 'wat i did todae and i hope u guys are interested to read' posts todae. Next posts will be more well thought out and if u dun like it, dun read. Honestly, i fancy the well thought out posts compared to some posts i just posted just for the sake of updating the site.

arfandi used up his time at 11:46 PM

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Well, this times post suppose to be angst but something happened and i don't feel like writing such posts anymore. The fact that sometimes people change with the people around u as the catalysts. This fact that sometimes, people fail to understand. This fact that peopl e wants things to stay the same way cause they don't want it in any other way.

Lol, well considering that kinda start off nicely for a nicely discusssed topic, might just continue it but considering to limit the angst rate.

Guess people has different opinion on changes. Some see it as good, some see it as bad. For me, it depends somehow, depending on the situation. Though to change is very hard and even if they do, its hard to maintain that stance. Well, changes do happen around us, even if we don't see it.

For those who doesn't like change, i wonder why they don't.. Maybe the way things are, are already good enough for them, and that they don't want it in anyway than this. The feeling is nice, yes its nice when we're in the comfort zone all the time. When u're confidence is at its epitome state, u just felt like ur life is going right. Its good isn't it? Though this attitude kinda leaves an opening for complancency. Imagine, if everythings alrite and it'll stay that way for days to come, why bother making preparatins rite? Well, thats where complacency can breed.

For those who likes change, i guess i have a lil bit of idea why. Being the same all the time is boring. Always seeking new things cause then their life would be much more colourful. Or maybe their attention span are short.. They doesn't like everything to be the same cause they dread the feeling that tomorrow will just be the same as todae and the day after that and so on. So the strive to gain something each and everyday. Sounds great isn't it? It does cause well u improve urself each and everyday but wat do u sacrifices in order to gain this. Equivalent trade. To gain all those u have to sacrifice ur peace, ur comfort zone and u're confidence. To always go and strive to new things with no basic synopsies of wat its gonna be, u're confidence aren't at everydae top high.

Both sounds good to me, well maybe for some people too. Ironically, they're of the opposite meaning yet both yields good result. So which one should we choose? Which is the best that we should choose? My theory is that, it depends on how u wanna lead ur life. It depends on where it will profit u in the most way. Though, if u want both, u can't always have a lil bit of the former and a lil bit of the latter. But thats gonna be hard. So, well, if people says u should lead this way cause its done very good thing to me, u shouldn't just follow blindly. Cause every people has their own way to lead their life. So think about it, have we been the leaders of our own life. Or has we been an apprentice to another persons life?

Hrmz, well i think thats a well planned out post. Comments are welcome. Flames.. Hrmz, i'm too lazy to bother.

arfandi used up his time at 1:08 AM

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