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Friday, October 29, 2004

Guess the thing about what makes the blog interesting is not how nice the layout looks. Its more on what content it holds that makes it nice to read. Lol, no wonder my blog is freaking boring cause well practically i'm a freaking boring person who doesn't want to show people wat i like and wat i do.

Thanx *CoverGirl` for taking ur time to read my oh so plain blog. Maybe i shud update things and add something in. And i still got that audio problem which still dun wanna loop. Lol. Oh did i told ya i love the new album from Sum 41, 'Chuck'? The song featured on this blog is kinda one of the nicer songs in the album.

Drew a great picture which is still under the process of cleaning up using the photoshop. Might take a while before i upload it due to the ongoing exams and all.
Completed 2/4 of my exam papers. So the end is near and a whole lot of free time will be gained. Though i wonder what shud i do with that free time. Still got that stuff i ought to finish. And the possibility of finding a job. Ugh.. contemplations~(hehe, learned that word from Vanessa)

=>"Isn't this what they want me to be? I've done everything that I could to be someone that they could be proud off," he spoke to himself. Burying his face to the pillow, he did not comprehend the situation that he encountered earlier on.

"I want your old self back. You're not who you used to be. Change back."

Those words kept revolving in his head. He changed because he wanted to be perfect for her. Not for himself, not for anyone else but her. Yet, she doesn't like it. Where have he gone wrong?<=

arfandi used up his time at 11:25 PM

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Well, this blog doesn't serve so much of a purpose. going to upload some new gifs which i think i shud update. Lol.

Basically theres nothing for me to say much to you guys cause i'm not reallie that socialable and all. Again, i'm challenged with the purpose of having a blog. So well, not gonna be updating that much cause not much is reading anyway, or they just hate to read this blog. Though now i noe how it feels like being leeched from someone else. All read and no tag. Lol. i feel guilty. Guess it is true wat goes around comes around. Hrmz kinda like a boomerang. But its weird, cause boomerang can spins back, thats a theory i gotta to learn. Lol. oops, zoning off.

So my exams coming, yeah, feeling tense and all. Feeling rather not well lately, mood gone down the drain and no ones caring. Or i just turn my back on the people. Either or, u choose. Can't wait to get my semestral papers done and over with. Then i can get my long awaited break. Or long awaited boredom.

Met with my gerlfren todae after three weeks not meeting. it felt so awkward yet again it took a while to break the ice. so weird, this relationship. been thinking about bad stuff on this relationship that i keep thinking she's forgetting me. Yet, it seems that she doesn't. Blame on my lack of patience and faith.

Enuff of u guys reading of my personal life. I'll be updating again if i feel like it.

arfandi used up his time at 5:33 PM

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

*serious content*

Friendship. To some its kinda hard to form but for some its easy. It depends on how people perceive things huh? The way u see things now might not be the same as how others see it. Its like seeing something in open air and comparing it to seeing it something underwater. The image is different, the feelings and environment being far and different apart. So how can we appreciate friendship when everyone sees it differently? Thats what i'm gonna discuss for today. Something so harmless such as friendship, taken too seriously which can cause a greater advantage or disadvantage. Yet, what purpose to we have for friendship. Some strives for a better living yet some use it for their own selfish advantages.

Honestly, for me, i cherish friendship as much as others do. Though, how others cherish is can never be truly understand as things somehow lacks the correct description just by words alone. I like making friends cause they do serve as something that is beneficial yet unselfish to myself. Getting to know people and being able to share things with them, in return getting a feeling of satisfaction and grateful.To be able to one day find someone who can truly understands u, and knows u from exterior to interior, as if they are siblings that god has forgotten to give to us. From friendship, it might flourish to something more wonderous like love and brotherhood. A relationship with such strong bonding, a source of confidence and hope, striving us to be a better person. These support from them triggers us to do things that we never thought we could ever do. To be able to support each other through thick and thin. The action of sacrifice is never thought of twice as overflowing trust binds these strong relationships together. Its just sad that we might never gain these kind of trust in our life. A once in a lifetime experience.

Nowadays, as time pass, eras change and ideology and definitions rapidly change. Something like friendship which was before pure and strong is now chaste relationship between two people who are lost and broken. The feeling of being wanted, the feeling of wanting to get attention. Man has fallen to such disgrace. When was the last time u see friendship so strong, that they wud drip blood just to protect them. When was the last time friendship has been so strong that lies meant to break them apart was nothing but pests. Now, friendship are such weak bondings that when the other party are rumoured to be having another best friend, internal conflicts would most probably spark. Its just sad that people do not value friendship as much as it was before.

Heh, still, even if i were to say this much, there will probably who would beg to differ abt something saying that now its a different era, u can't expect it to say the same. Or something abt me being damn conservative and still stuck in the olden days. Yet let me tell you, whats the great thing abt being different if days before we evolved into this era was much better compared to now? Still, right after i say that, some people will say that i am blinded and being narrow minded. Saying that i am unable to see better things that exists now.

This is just my opinion, there are always things that can be faulted here. I'm not charismatic, i noe i'm not. But charismatic people are people who can manipulate ur mind into thinking selfishly for what u want. Think for urself and u might be a better person. Why follow someone elses life if it is not proven compatible with ur life.

Till next time, such a lengthy post todae.

arfandi used up his time at 9:21 PM

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Haven't been updating in a while, cause kinda unmotivated to post anything. Lifes been dull, boring, a tad interesting for some part.

Ch, so troublesome. What is? This blog i mean. Such things maintain yet theres no definite reason why. For the fact that some do have their cause, i dun reallie have hard reasons as to why i'm maintaining this blog.

Urmz, not much happens these days though some interesting do happens but it isn't fun when u're telling someone how happy u are cause thats just how the world is. Though some exceptions, to those people who are kind hearted and pure, but to others, they are stuck up asses who only care abt their well being.

"People who love only themself will destroy themself"

Been learning to appreciate people these days since i started poly and its hard for me at first. Till now, theres still some people who i can't get along with. Don't ask me who cause i'm too lazy to pinpoint who.

"Learn to give rather than to get, even when u don't expect something in return"

I wonder how true that phrase is, cause humans are selfish by nature and by extrene situations, some might think abt others. Though, some people, selfishness is alien to them and kudos to them for being saints. They make this world a much nicer place to live.

End of crapping, heh.

arfandi used up his time at 10:16 PM

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