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Saturday, September 30, 2006

How come girls, well, not to generalise or anything, urmz, ok, to whom it MAY concern, have this bad habit of becoming overly jealous, or have a lingering hope that their relationship partners are able to read their mind?

Before I even get to this issue, firstly maybe I'd like to specify that most girls understand that guys are usually dense, and insensitive to a certain extent. Don't blame it that guys are faking to be insensitive, they ARE naturally insensitive, or should we rephrase it as being very rational. Sensitive, or being emotional about certain things are traits of the female gender, who due to the women right's movement, has claimed that guys should be sensitive about certain issues as well. About this women right's issue, is a very sensitive topic to talk about cause I'm not against it but we'll discuss this in future posts.

Therefore, girls have this habit of expecting their relationship partner to be able to somehow read their mind, and plan out counter measures. All this without a single word being exchanged. How this is possible? It was never possible, but it seems that its a normal action done to well, test their boyfriends in HOPE that they are SENSITIVE enough to pick up the clues and hints drop here and there. In most cases, their hopes are crushed due to the fact that alot of guys fails to pick up these hints, cause they are naturally dense about the things around them.

So the million dollar question is, most girls knows that the probability of guys being able to figure it out is very low, why do they still do these kind of things? In hope that their boyfriend is THE boyfriend everyone has been trying to search? Like the golden egg or something? Guess its like gambling, you know your chances of losing are always higher than winning, yet you keep on playing. Shrugs.

Disclaimer: This post is not related to anyone in particular. Dammit, I did said to whom it may concern didn't I?

arfandi used up his time at 3:01 AM

Friday, September 29, 2006

Very early post here, just to commemorate the naming of this blog, which has been changed from rfandi2.blogspot.com to withdrawnsanity.blogspot.com

A little bit of history about rfandi2.blogspot.com, well why its name that way? At that point of time, I really had no idea on what to name it, so I just took my nickname and added my favourite number. Yeah, not really creative but took me long enough to change it.

Anyway, check out this video of Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Enjoy.

arfandi used up his time at 3:34 AM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

I have no idea why I'm here, but I felt like I just had to post something.

I painted my room and my living room in three days flat. Rearranged my furnitures, thinking of buying some well, stuff to fill up the room. Anyone care to join me?

The appeal process is excruciatingly slow, oops, ok did everyone know that?

Ok life is extremely boring on my side, will someone make it exciting for me?

arfandi used up his time at 9:46 PM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Don't expect this kind of post to be circulating around my blog much, cause I don't usually write about my personal life alot. Though, I think there are some people out there that I promised I would give an update on hows life been going on for me.

First and foremost, life's been a very huge challenge for someone like me who has never faced such predicaments before, issues such as being kicked out of school, owing people money and having a family rift between my family members. It particularly hard for me cause I believe that I've (not gonna go with the everyone cause this post will be rather personal) never really taken my life seriously. All those things that I've told myself that I've got my life under control and that nothings going to change to what I've planned, well turned out, went out of control and veered way off what I've planned. Feeling frustrated, depressed, all those negative emotions that I've learnt so hard to despise resurfaced, reminding me that life was never meant to be predictable. That changes were bound to happen, and this quote from Kenneth's blog struck a chord in my head, which is 'Nothing will ever stay the same, cept that changes is the only thing constant'.

Being a teenager approaching adult, really does make you go through this roller coaster ride of revelations. Sure they may not be happy all the time, sometimes sadness and the feeling of lost is equally present. Or should I say, the whole library of emotions are spilled out for us to truly feel and experience each and every one of it. Though, should I feel frustrated or moan about things like 'if only' things happened this way, so I would never have felt such experiences? I should shouldn't I? I believe its the contrary. The chance to experience such dilemma or memories are things that should be cherished and blessed. I'm not preaching, but seriously, and no, I'm not trying to make myself feel better, I believe that not everyone are able to experience such things, and such things are what gives meaning to the life that we are living.

Not saying that I've seen everything, quite the opposite. I believe there are still much more for me to experience. I'm not even past 20, but to be able to experience such predicament makes yourself feel that, hey, life is not really that predictable after all.

So what happens now with my life? Life now, to me seems much more fulfilling. Lifes been really hard on me, but I'm moving on. I'm trying to request an appeal back into the school. All goes well, I'm delighted. Everything goes not as I wished for, most probably I'll be working part-time for a while. Wait for my enlistment letter to come, and do what my country requests me to do. Get a full-time job after that, do my private diploma with the cash that I earns. Help my family, invest some money for my future and we'll see how it goes from there. The greatest gift that I've acquired in being kicked out of school, is a glimpse of freedom. Though this gift, to some is there greatest nightmare. Its all a matter of perspective.

arfandi used up his time at 5:50 PM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Had this talk with my friend that time, ok more like I asked him what is his top 5 places that he'd wish he aspire to go and it got me thinking about how alot of people wishes they could leave Singapore, be it permanent or temporarily to venture onto a new frontier. When we think about it, the ticket costs well, 3 months of full time working, but I think its better travelling then rather then you have kids trailing behind you.

So what is the top 5 places he wanted to go was:

Top on the list, Japan. He even insisted to stay there for a year to experience the whole four seasons there.
New Zealand, for its breathtaking scenery and natural features.
France, to well, check out the chicks there, and learn the so-called most romantic language. Not forgetting the Eiffel.
Spain, don't ask me. Everyone just loves Spain but have NO idea what to look forward to over there.
Australia, to experience their infamous much slower than Singapore life pace. To catch a breather.

Another girlfriend of mine, a friend of mine who is a girl for your information, pfft, wanted to go to Vesuvius. What the hell? That place was like buried in dust due to the megaton volcanic eruption that swept the whole city with molten lava, and she wants to go there? Figures, though I'm quite curious to what did happen to that place after the whole incident which occured decades ago.

Oh yeah, don't hesitate to share with me some of the places you wish to travel to, I'm darn curious though about what other people's preference are.

arfandi used up his time at 6:23 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Back with another post. Was meaning to post this for a very long time but kept on being put off till later due to well, alot of unprecedented stuff.

Was seeing this ad on the tv about some W class refrigerator where they started off by explaining how the vegetables can be so green due to the abundance of sunlight, and they spout out snippets about how the same goes like their "fridge" back at home. So this kid went home and well, if I were her I would have hurried to the fridge and ask whether this fridge can grow vegetables then. Astonishingly, her mum shrugs and didn't say a word. I was wondering what the hell she goes off to say just like our fridge only to be dumbfounded when her daughter asked that question?

Perfect case of think before you say. Well, nothing against the fridge, if you feel like retaining you vegetables in your fridge for a long time, either buy this fridge if you're rich or eat them immediately after you bought it. No one buys something only to just dump it the fridge and wait for it to lay eggs.

arfandi used up his time at 11:28 PM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

I'm really really sorry that I was unable to update as regularly as before. Like they say, I had my priorities. Not that I'm saying this blog is not a priority, just that its not the very top of my priority list. Ok enough bout the word priority cause if I counted right, I already typed 4 already including the one in this statement.

I've been digging into alot of romance books or shows. Yeah, you must be telling me come on, I did this already but I can assure you this is another topic I'd like to well, ponder upon. Romance, well, it IS a category of books, so called like a genre for example like music has rock, punk, metal or ska just to name a few and like everything that we have in this world, its all about preferences. Unluckily( or well, I won't deny luckily) for me, I'm able to well accept it. This brought me to a point where, everyone, at any moment of time, will be bias to the preferences be it consiously or sub-consciously, unless you're really train to be a neutral. Cause you see, I realised that preferences is not just a matter of what your brain thinks, for example, alot of people will feel they like horror cause they are scary and they like to thrill. Though there is this other emotional factor that well, decides whether the person prefer something or not. A person who likes horror movie may be someone who is unafraid of worldly fear because of past experiences or things that he/she went through. Some on the other hand, who is very paranoid about things will choose not to watch such shows. Therefore, it came to me that whatever the character of the individual does decide what he chooses.

So what am I yabbering about? To me, I take emotions as a pool of well, rojak. Its like a bowl with different kind of things inside that when you feel like you wanna be angry, you take out the anger emotion from the pot. And this pot of emotion can revolve violently, or peacefully depending on the emotional state of the person. So alot of people deem emotion as something which is very hard to control, and the only way is to, practically feel that emotions are impractical to certain things such as hearings, or trials, cause having personal opinions about either party will tilt the whole thing to either side. Thus, we eliminate this factor, well iiresponsibly to me, to make things more standardise or more objective base. Thus, as we grow up, we realise that whenever we tend to make decisions, alot of people tells us to think properly but not to think properly and feel it with heart. Everything comes to a conclusion where we based everything with pros and cons.

The thing that bothers me now is that, it is true having an analytical way to make decisions, the heart is most of the time ignored. Though, this doesn't prove anything, but it does make this world a rather sad place when we tend to make decisions because we feel its be more beneficial, more profitable. Its not that its a bad way of making decisions, but it kind of makes us be like an unfeeling bastard. Just in case what I'm going about, the heart is nearly ignored in the daily things that we do, cause we have lost faith in our own feelings. Alot of people deem life as something that can be put into theories and words, numbers and probabilities, that we fail to see that some things in life, we've got to feel around with our heart.

arfandi used up his time at 11:39 PM

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