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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Been reading up on a couple of forum, just reading. Reading up posts from philosophy students kind of makes me rethink back about what really affects our lives. I can be very sure some people hold on to a certain principles derive from sources be it movies, show, books or sayings. Some people hold on to Socrate's and some hold on to Oprah's. Whatever that principle is, there is just one thing that I believe we should restrict ourselves from.

Just one thing that I believe people should take precaution from is to accept such principle as a whole. It needs to be tweaked a little bit to fit with our lifestyle, which could take quite a while as firstly, it needs to fit in with the lifestyle that we're living in and secondly, the level of maturity. Sometimes, the sayings that we apply to someone might not be necessarily applied onto another.

Though you know what, I kind of gets sick reading philosophical bullshit cause we know some terms could have been better expressed in simpler terms.

arfandi used up his time at 10:28 AM

Friday, November 24, 2006

arfandi used up his time at 4:34 AM

Hari Raya 2006
Roll Call: Sazali, Arfandi, Li Heng, Rauff, Sadiqin, Hafiz, Zul, Syazwan, Gopal, Kesavan, Fadhli, Jia Wan.

Batch Download:
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=J3X2WXST

Ok, there ya go. Just a sneak preview of the whole thing. Will upload up EVERYTHING ala slide.com (whatever that is).

arfandi used up his time at 2:34 AM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

when three paths converge into one.

credit: Sadiqin's phone.

arfandi used up his time at 6:54 PM

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Ok just an insight on what's going on with the blog. First up, Raye pictures will be uploaded soon enough, but I'll be putting up the whole batch on either rapidshare or megauploads. Though I hate both of those sites, guess its the only two I have to depend on right now.

Secondly, there is that story of that early internet blogger story that I will be updating weekly, or when I get into that frenzy again, so sit tight for the second instalment (or installment which ever you prefer).

Oh, and thirdly, I'm gonna be changing my layout soon enough cause of three reasons. First, I'm not a teenage anymore, through with that stage of life, all the angst and the pain. Second, the side navigation bar seems too skimpy and tight to do alot of customization such as adding any embedding of audio or video format. And finally, the post width are too tiny, so I had to resort to posting tiny pictures all the time. So I guess it's finally time for a new layout eventhough this layout caught my eyes among the rest.

Newae, as listed on Wa~na's blog, any words that you guys don't understand or cease to find it in any dictionary in your head, please kindly refer to the online internet dictionary which is both free and free. Dictionary.com

So that is all for this time update. Well, this is an update, not a post.

arfandi used up his time at 3:55 PM

snapshot.

credit: abdul rauff

arfandi used up his time at 12:18 AM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

As they say, the calm before the storm.

Yearps, another post. I just realised how dependant I am on this blog on nights when I couldn't sleep, or those nights that were plagued with nightmares. As I laid lying on my bed, staring on the dark abyss, which is my ceiling, I was rendered sleepless for the night. Nuff said bout that, as I made my way out of the room in a pointless attempt of grasping the reality called my living room. Damn, my head is killing me. My throats felt salty and dry, as if I've been screaming so much, literally no, in my nightmare yes.

I think my eyes are playing tricks on me, but it seemed like the lights of my monitor PC hummed into life. Giving the whole room a creepy but a comforting ray of illumination. How can you feel comfort yet in a creepy setting? That is something that even I couldn't fathom.

With the thought of sleeping quickly fleeting pass my mind, my fingers seemed to have a life on its own as it slenderly clicked on the numerous buttons of the keyboard, bringing me to destinations far into the distance and not imagined by man. The Internet. Curse my enemies for succeeding to stop me with a hurdle, even someone like me couldn't avoid encountering the lagginess of loading an image-files-what not site due to not being able to bask with the glory of faster internet connections. Guess this detour might prove to be timely as I felt the need to quench the forgotten thirst. Great, that F&N Blazt I was keeping for later might soothe this aching feeling down the hollow passage of my throat. Did I ever tell you how brilliant cooled carbonated drink taste like? Scratch ~~Coke~~.

While savoring the coolness and uber fizziness of the drink, all consciousness blew away with a single swept, leaving me with an eternal bliss, like mango on a sunny afternoon. That didn't make any sense? The Blazt is mango taste plus a tinch of another. Weird concoction. Still holding to the goblet of eternal goodness, I made my way back to my PC and realised the site has fairly loaded all the image-goodness delight it's able to serve. Though even THAT wasn't able to fill my insatiable need of content. Even after leaving a trail blaze on blogs that I've surfed, I needed more. A burst of electrical signal from the back of my brain blazes through my nerves and to my fingers as these fingers started typing by itself. I couldn't control my actions as the unimaginable happened. It had typed, It.

Next time:
What had the fingers typed? What is It? Next time on The Adventure of the Nightmare plagued Internet Surfer!

arfandi used up his time at 6:25 AM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

I couldn't save him.

arfandi used up his time at 2:19 PM

How's life been for me? Well, its disappointing. What have I been doing when what I SHOULD be doing, uhh you don't want to know. Maybe a summary would do huh? Most people don't know what's been going on anyway, nor they care.

Being kicked out of school has been something but a far memory for me. At first I couldn't help but felt sorry for myself, all the wasted years. For nothing. Regaining myself from that took me a while I guess. So I decided that I should start working part-time and working out for my napha test for NS.

Did I do that? Guess not. Maybe I should start thinking and deciding for myself. I NEED to start telling myself my LIFE is already different from the others. I can't go on living the life of students, who goes to school and hangs out after that. They have SOMETHING they're fighting towards. I don't.

On another issue, being out of school, unemployed and untrained brings me back like the days went I was waiting for my 'O' level results. Just suckier. Though being free makes you have all the time in the world to prod on the issues that usually get pushed to the back of your mind. So what has been bothering me due to the immense time at hand? My girlfriend.

It was so much easier waiting when there's always something distracting you such as school or work. Don't be mistaken, my relationship with her isn't like the typical couples outside though I wish sometimes yet I can't be selfish, uhh you know what I mean. If you don't then you're a very, very, ok let's have a chat some day, I'll explain.

So I've been waiting, and what the hell is a relationship if you just wait? mine. Crud, she doesn't know I love her so much. And she's going with this 'hey I don't wanna make you suffer by waiting longer' thing. Definitely it is noble, but that is just excuse for you to make yourself feel that you've made the right choice. So letting me go cause you feel that I deserve better, please don't make me go through that twice.

No idea if she reads this, but occasionally she does. And she doesn't tag anyway. She comes and sees and goes, without leaving a presence.

I've always wanted a normal relationship, but instead I always get the weird kind. Note to self: There was never a normal relationship.

arfandi used up his time at 3:21 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

arfandi used up his time at 11:52 PM

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Intended to post something else for tonight, right morning, actually but guess that have to wait for another time. Just that this issue has been lingering in my mind lately. 'Bias', to be inclined to a certain perspective in the act of making a decision or delivering opinions. We've heard alot of people saying people are bias, wherever you go, in work, school or practically just living. Just a mere incantation of the word bias, the people around you goes sour and putrid cause immediately words such as 'unfair', 'disadvantageous' or 'favouritism' came across their minds. We all just know that being bias is bad. Full stop.

Therefore, what the hell is bothering me right? Being a person who well, during his free time, explores what its like looking at a different perspective, realised this. Biasness, to a certain extent is not unfair. Yes, I can hear 'gasps' from some people who are reading this, but this will further be explained later on. Before we can understand as to how I came to such a blasphemous remark, we need to understand the meaning of biasness.

Biasness has been with us for well, practically since the time we learn to know what it means. When we say, hey that guy is being so bias cause he's a friend of that other person. Sounds familiar? Definately everyone feels frustrated or angered that things doesn't go their way, so we feel like we're being turned away. Some time, people do not use the word 'bias' the right way such in the case that the teacher giving a student higher mark compared to another student cause he's the child of someone that he/she is friends with. That is irrational. Most of the time, people do use the word 'bias' in context, such as in the case an employer giving an employee a higher pay cause he works better and gives a higher service compared to someone who just comes to work for the sake of work.

Now that you see that image, alot of people tend to use the word 'bias' correctly when presented with the right information regarding the issue or its just plain obvious. Though there are also people who use the word 'bias' just because they feel jealous of other people's efforts.

So now that we know and see the two sides of using the word 'bias', be someone who uses the word as it is define as, not as a way to show the pathetic side of you just because someone else is better than you.

arfandi used up his time at 2:01 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

So what triggered me to act quite peculiarly this time? Oh you didn't realise what is so peculiar bout this post? I updated in the span of three days. THAT is peculiar. Ok ok, fine the jokes sort of dead but well on to the news.

Yesterday was suppose to be very mundane and boring. NOT. Guess I was suppose to support my friend for his BE talentime, which turns out to not exactly be a talentime if you count the participants being judged after the whole show is finished. My friend, ok fine lets make it easier, Rauff's band was guest band for that night. Why guest band? I have no effing idea.

The thing that I didn't expect was to ask LAST MINUTE, to perform up stage cause one of their rhythm guitarist was busy with organising the whole event. Yes, he's an organiser. So I was forced to learn Here Without You, and Wherever You Will Go in a short span of 30 minutes. The whole of that two song. Though that is not the issue here.

The whole effing issue here is that 1. the darn Amplifier wasn't workng, 2. Its at THE auditorium, my previous band know how F*d up dat place is and 3. There was no monitor amplifier for the band, so we practically couldn't here whatever we were playing, and you guessed it, the audience heard a VERY mistimed performance.

So there you have it. I was certain and confident that I'd do OK for the performance, but with the amplifier acting up on me, and the effing tech crew, we managed to miraculously turn out dumb and stupid. Bravo tech crew.

arfandi used up his time at 9:33 PM

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