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Monday, January 01, 2007

Its 22 minutes past 12. Happy New Year.

Ok don't mind the non-celebratory mood. I don't really relish the fact that another year has just past, though a part of me was exhilarated. Why? 2006 has been a mixture of experience for me. ALOT.

I don't really remember the details to how I spent the whole year. I can divide it into 2 parts. The first half of the year and the second.

The first half, I got pretty involved in this job of mine which I'm on an indefinite hiatus for as far as I know. So nothing much to say that.

The second part was the one with alot of drama and revelations. I got kicked out of school and fell in love with my girlfriend on another whole level. Ok, fine fine, it isn't that much but now that you mentioned it, I realise how minimal my activities were. The got kicked out of school, damn, I don't want to remind you guys again what I went through. A couple of posts about how I was regretting, then a couple more about how I came into term with it and finally the moving on part. Nothing much. Ok but the emotional factor involved in the whole ordeal was very extensive. Emotions ranging from anger to shock to well finally relief. I know I should feel horrible but people keeps on saying that we should always learn from failures. Even from stupid ones. And what doesn't kill you, only make you stronger.

This part of course is the part where I finally realised how much she means to me. If you guys who have read the, well, this post way back, about how my girlfriend was thinking of letting me go. Guess I managed to had a talk with her a few days after that, came to understanding with each other. Though right after that, she approached me for this traffic count job which allowed me to be much closer to her since she's doing the job too. Ok bear with me here, its very corny for my usual readers since I always try to avoid being too emotional. Due to the job, I realised how much I have done for her, how close I was to giving up and how much I have grown as a person to be able to love her. Those close to me understands that my girlfriend doesn't go out on dates, or hold hands, nothing of that sort. Being with her really challenged me but somehow it was all worth the effort. Okok, I realised how much I really love her. Or more like I didn't know I could love someone this much.

2006, the year I turned 19, I got kicked out of school, I made new friends, I had a large pizza with Rauff under the block for my birthday, my girlfriend told me she loves me. Happy 1 year Anniversary dear. Yeah, its already been a year. You peeps didn't expect me to last this long right? Neither did i. Figures.

Haha, okok I'll stop at that. You guys won't see me this weak again. Since its the new year, I'm being rather sentimental.

arfandi used up his time at 12:22 AM

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