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Saturday, March 24, 2007

Been dying to actually get my butt onto a chair and upload a new post. Though most of the time, I'd be stumped on what to actually write about. You know, I know that I would never resort to actually typing out what the hell happened today unless if it's something that needs mentioning. Guess now that I'm actually posting something means I've got something to actually voice out about.

Knowing me, throughout my life, going my way to fulfill the desire or need of others seemed like something that I religiously try to practice. They want me to be there for them, play soccer or just meet up, I'd try as hard as possible to be able to make it. Most of the time I do, the few of the times that I didn't, I begged for understandng. Any emotions that surfaces when someone is being placed in an unfair situation, I've felt it. Why? Cause sometimes, when you try so hard to be understanding for someone, people may not reciprocate the same way. We tend to love to just take and not give back. We've grown to the point where we think that everything is up for the taking. We forgot the meaning of courtesy, the meaning of understanding. Why am I being so temperamental right about now? Guess I've always felt that when one tries very hard for someone, it is logical to be reciprocated back not exactly equal but fair amount of reciprocation.

I've been trying as hard as possible to take a day off, whenever my friends tells me that we have jamming session, recording session or a soccer match. I felt that thats the most I could do. Though I can't stop myself from feeling that I'm treated unfairly when people pressures me to be able to be there when I've already told them I can't. I am very sick and tired of saying 'Ok, I'll make it', when most of the god damn time, they do not try enough to actually conform to my restrictions. They know I'm done with work at 5 but they can only do a certain activity before 12pm, so what do they do? They ask ME to take an off instead so that I can fit in nicely to their plan. So what about MY plan? Have you ever put into consideration about that? Yeah sure, that other time but I've got a JOB and YOU don't. So why am I having to say I can make it even when I have a job but you god damn can't, when you don't have an effing job. For goodness sake, why do I have to be told to take an off cause you can't make it after 5?

I'm sorry the post spiraled out of control but I couldn't contain this anger anymore. What I've always wanted is some understanding and for them to reflect on themself. I've done alot and I feel that I deserve some sort of gratification in a form of understanding. Whenever they say they can't make it, its ok for them and say lets postpone it. When I ask to postpone, I was told to try and get an off from my job. There is a limit on how selfless I can be, but when you try to cross that line, I'm not willing to conform to your needs anymore.

Labels: angry

arfandi used up his time at 7:27 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

"i'm falling, i'm falling down. i'm screaming, i'm screaming now..."

Yearp, 'Falling' has finally been released but still far from complete. ~~Scratch~~ that, I don't really know if they're really final or in-progress tracks. 'Scar's Remain' is the only song currently within the clutches of Razali and desperately trying to escape to our ears. We still have to wait for that. Anyway, won't make you guys wait anymore, here's 'Falling' from Ethel.

Our band, Ethel, is currently coming to complete 'Running Away'. Title is still under judgement, its not decided yet whether we're gonna title it as that.

Extra Bit
An insight on the current activities of Ethel, which is creation of original songs has dated way back when we were still in Secondary School. Sazali and I were pretty psyched about creating our own songs as we realised the harshness of having to emulate other singer's vocals for bands. We got to a point where we felt the only way to feel comfortable singing to a song is, well, singing to a song you created yourself. Since they're created based on your vocal limitations, you don't need to push yourself when you know you can't reach a certain note or pitch.

So we got about trying to create our own songs but felt that we needed to decide on a rhythm first. Sazali, Firdaus, Fadhli(surprisingly) and I started off with such a simple chord and 'Why' was created, which tentatively got revamped and improved to become 'Scar's Remain'. The rest, is history.

Bands broke up and formed, finally it solidified to Ethel, basically Scarlet Soul minus lead guitarist, Mahathir. Original line up and still original creative minds. 'Falling', 'Take it All Away' and 'Virgin's Said' were created respectively.

Current line-up consisting of:
Sazali percussions
Arfandi bass/rhytm guitar
Hafiz rhythm guitar/bass
Farhan vocals/piano

We were able to contact with Mahathir again since he's undergoing NS. The great lead guitarist that we respect and awe.

That's it for this time's post. More updates on the band's activities in future post's.

Labels: Ethel, falling

arfandi used up his time at 7:43 PM

Friday, March 09, 2007

To tell you the truth, I can't believe I fit back into the routine life just fine. Albeit the agonising pain of having to wake up, I've been going on normally with the current job that I'm doing. Though the departure of my colleague, who is also a brother of Rauff to pursue JC studies, shakened me (ok that was a bit exaggerating), I adapted again quite well. Won't venture into the tales of what I do at my work place cause it'll bore you to oblivion, which leaves me with practically nothing to talk about. That just shows how routine my life is.

I was thinking about resigning soon enough in 1 and a half months time. Why? Well, cause I wouldn't want to be caught spending the rest of my freedom as a free man locked up in a supermarket and regretting it later when I serve the country in National Service. Its like working real hard, getting rich but not being able to enjoy spending it kinda theory. I wonder, will I have the guts to even say I'm resigning. I'm getting kinda attached to the place.

Anyway, I did say I would post up the raw song called 'Take it All Away' from my band 'Ethel'. There you go. Enjoy.

arfandi used up his time at 5:25 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

Ok, I can't believe I've switched to beta. It's like what Zali told me, he was forced well, to switch to beta. There are quite a few things about beta that I can never come to terms with.

The lousy ugly thing on the top that was already evident on the previous version was much hideously bigger this time and it ruined my previous skin. Thus, the reason why I'm with the current layout that you're actually seeing. Hope I don't get the same problem Zali had we he tried to create a post which would be rather lengthy to try and describe here.

Ethel Recording Session went great, we played tremendously well, way better than we usually do. Perfect? Definitely not. Maybe its the fact that we were cutting our songs to tracks made us well, pulled up our socks? Our lead vocalist, sang well, as he usually do. The final cut for the three songs we recorded on that day is still going through tweaking by our, hrm, I have no idea how to put him. Introducng, Razali, who kinds of remind me of Firdaus if he actually becomes older. His passion, stature reminds me of him. Credits to both Sazali and Razali for giving our band this opportunity to show case our talents and cutting it into tracks. Somehow, deep within me, I've always wanted to do something like this, or maybe not. Haa.

The three songs that we recorded are:
- Take it all Away
- I can't believe I forgot the second song's title
- Originally called 'Why' but changed to something else which I am ashame to admit that I forgot too.

So, I wanted to let you guys have a taste of how it sounds like since I have the raw sound of Take it all Away on imeem but guess I decided against it. Don't want you guys to hear on an incomplete item. So patience people.

Thats it for today's post, till next time.

Labels: Ethel, Recording