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Saturday, March 29, 2008

It's been a while since I last posted something. Honestly speaking, things has been rather hectic. Eventhough I was informed that ASLC will be very packed, I didn't expect it to be THIS packed. So yeah, I might be posting quite irregularly in the near future, what with the trip to Thailand is coming soon, and I'll be stuck at some foreign place for 3 weeks on end.

Anyway, out with the Army talk, seriously I'm getting sick and tired of talking about it all the time. Other than the growing hatred for some certain sergeants for having a stick up their ass 24/7, there is nothing much I can say about the Army that I'd like to be cheerfully sharing about. Not that there's much things I can say.

I've been actively drawing, writing songs, making song, uhh well anything that I can get my hands on making. Somehow, I guess it's a sort of salvation for me, to stop me from being so wrapped up with Army and making it revolve around me, like someone that I know off. Seriously, now that I think about it, it makes me laugh, thinking why the hell did I joined NCC during secondary school. Ok fine, I do know why, but now that in comparison to my current situation, it is rather ironic. Back in secondary school, guys like me wants so much to experience the Army life, now that we're already in, we want to get out of it. Sheer irony. Though I can never truly say whatever that I've learnt in NCC can even amount to 1 month of training in the Army. Whatever that are actually learnt in NCC for 4 years are way more mediocre and insignificant compared to what you can actually learn in a meere 1 month in the real deal.

Ah crap, see I ended up talking about the Army. Oh well, anyway, I know that I've been telling people that I'm in a band and not to say I'm really serious about it. Though, I actually enjoy having similar minded people in a band, making songs. It's more fun that doing something alone. More like doing a drawing collaboration. Now that I've mentioned it, I kind of want to have a drawing collab with someone, but never had the guts to. Somehow, I kept telling myself my drawings aren't good enough, that they're never to the best that I can do. I guess this constant comparing my work with Harkem's work, kinds of help me to improve and yet kills my pride to whatever insignificance of it that is left. I know that some people find my art work is good, but I've never conjur enough guts to flaunt it. Wait, maybe I will never will, cause seriously, there are really, REALLY better art works out there. That's why, I know, I can never start being arrogant before I achieve anyhting.

Woah stop stop. I think I'm just puking out words that is coming straight in my head. Though, you can expect my post to be very honest and maybe beat around the bush, but it's the line of thoughts that actually goes through my head. I know, that I may never be good in English, but at least I know that I have the gift to express my emotions and thoughts clearly into words, phrases and sentences. For that, at least I am proud of myself.

arfandi used up his time at 1:58 PM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Seriously, there isn't much that I would want to say.

Ok fine, I'm booking in tonight. Oh man, I should have been used to it already. Sigh.

Alright, will not spiral down the path of self-wallowing, also known as 'whining' this time. Ok guess what, I think I've just lost the ability to type in proper sentence, or just that fact that I have no idea what to write. I don't intend to write something as superficial as where I went off to or what I did during the 3 days break that I had. Oh, I forgot to mention that I'm done with my BSLC. What is BSLC? Don't bother, it'll bore the crap out of you.

Ok forget it, I have no idea what to write. This is frustrating.

arfandi used up his time at 3:20 PM

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Will be booking tonight, hopefully the last time I'm booking back in to Pasir Laba Camp.

Pfft, who am I kidding. Dammit.

Well anyway, will be Passing Out as a Corporal on this Tuesday. Anxious much? Yearp, definitely. Somehow, this time round, I am trying to get used to the fact that, I'll be meeting loads of new people, and leaving them in a span of a few months. Going through hardships and happiness together with them, in yet another chapter of my life. What is with NS anyway? Why does it always instill such memories in me and proves to me time and time again that, it won't be such a bad experience going through one? How the heck was it able to make me actually enjoy the times I've been through, eventhough most of the time that we've been doing are painstakingly tiring tasks.

Somehow, going through hardships, isn't so painful when you have friends to laugh with, share your tiredness with, discuss problems with. Somehow, all those questions I've been asking back during my teenage days was answered just by being in the Army. To find friends who aren't holding up a facade just to go by each day. Meeting real people, going through real obstacles, together as a team.

Crap, I can't believe I said all that. And there I was going last time about NS going to be a horrible 2 years of my life.

Side tracked abit, I think, I'm hopelessly in love with my girlfriend. Period.

arfandi used up his time at 4:48 PM

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