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Sunday, September 28, 2008

arfandi used up his time at 9:40 PM

Friday, September 26, 2008

The only reason I'm updating this much is due to the absence of activity for me to do at home. Surprisingly, I'm staying home since I need to clear up the dust and re-arranged the room for the upcoming Raya. Though, this time around, Raya came about pretty fast since I was spending 2 weeks of it suffering in Platoon Sergeant course. No wonder huh?

It's more presentable now, at least the things around the room aren't so cluttered. Threw away alot of stuff, things that I've never used for a long time, or are just taking too much space. Threw away alot of old things which I was hesitant to throw away the previous year. Finally got about throwing it away.

Yet, that wasn't the purpose of me updating today. I mean the whole, what-the-hell-did-i-do-to-my-room-today. Something striked my thought just a while ago. I've met so much and lost equally much people for 21 years of my life, that it makes me ponder. Like back in Primary School, I had friends like, Azri Zulfarhan, Aizat, Iliyas, Yusri, Salina, Ayu, Hadhinah, Huda and alot more to mention. Azri Zulfarhan, tend to see him around sometimes, in the weirdest places. Aizat, the last time I met him was during a reunion at Ayu's arrival back to Singapore. After that, never actually see him anymore. Iliyas, back then when we had a soccer match, Elkrados against his team. Yusri, ok, I think it has already been a decade since I last saw him. Right after I moved to the current house I'm in, I didn't see him till now. Salina, the last time I saw her, I didn't know how to react. Nuff said. Ayu, when she came back to Singapore after moving to Australia. Wasn't that close to her anyway. Hadhinah, surprisingly, a few months ago. Still contacting. Huda, well she just lives beside Hadhinah. Again, she left me speechless. As in, ask me if you want to know why.

I realised that, somehow, I'm rather regretful for the fact that I tried to erase that chapter in my life. I wonder why. I guess, it's because I don't really hold on to the memory dearly since I didn't exactly achieve anything. I just did well for my studies. Didn't join any ECA, ok fine, I was a librarian. Yet, I don't exactly earn much back in Primary School. There were some people who I wished I mustered enough confidence to have actually strike a chat, cause now it feels like I missed my chance knowing someone like them. Now, I barely remember the faces of my friends back in Primary School. Somehow, I wish I made my life back then more significant. I wish I did.

arfandi used up his time at 6:04 PM

Thursday, September 25, 2008

I'm back, for the moment. Got myself off the camp for 1 day since they sort of promised me or so. Though, the rather dismal thing is that, I have duty on Saturday. If the unit actually books out on Friday and I don't have a duty on Saturday, it'll be sort of a long weekend. Which is not exactly happening right now. Yearp.

Anyway, I actually wanted to update something about the commissioning of a close friend of mine two weeks ago. Though, didn't materialise since I was a bit hesitating about it. Till just about just now, I realised might as well let you guys know. Hitch a ride on Khai's girlfriend's car to Safti MI for Rauff's commissioning parade. Though, a couple of my BMT friends are commissioning as well on that day, only got about meeting Matthias. How couldn't I when he's like all the way at the front being the contingent commander.

So the whole thing was as usual, a typical parade, guess typical cause it's more or less the same thing as how I passed out as a Sergeant back in Sispec. Though, they did it with more style as they're in their No. 1 uniforms. Khai, his girlfriend Ida, Muz and I were the only one who came for it. Sadiqin was citing his presence a few days before but turned tail at the end due to some 'personal' matters. Something about fulfilling his duty as Mummy's boy. Sniggers.

So after the whole, we got to take pictures of Rauff's parents putting on his rank on his shoulders.

After the whole thing ended, went over to the other side of the Parade Square to find Matthias and the rest of my BMT mates who successfully completed OCS. The reunion was rather nice though, since Matthias and I went a way back in BMT. Someone who I don't think I'll ever forget. We call him the British chinese who doesn't sound so British. Seriously, he was in the same school as Daniel Radcliffe and said he wasn't that great actually.

After that, well, that'll be a story to be told on another day. I didn't feel like I wasted my Sunday though since at the end, I think they deserve it. They're such great friends to have, I'm glad I met them even in a period where you tend to only look at the grim side of life.

Labels: commissioning, OCS

arfandi used up his time at 10:13 PM

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Okay alright, maybe I might end up writing the 'what the hell happened', kinda post. I mean, as a matter of fact, not everyone actually knows what the hell goes through in my life.. and in no what-so-ever way is this post meant to be like a tale of some conceited guy who has nothing better to do. No way.

Practically speaking, I've served the country for a year now. Since enlisted on the 13th of September 2007, I think I've suffered enough compared to my previous civilian life to tell myself that, what the hell and why did I just went through all those crap for. Though surprisingly, I think I kind of overachieved myself. Ok not really, if I got into OCS, then maybe I did overachieved myself.

Enlisted on the 13 September 2007. Completed BMT and rid myself from the title 'Recruit'. Did my Basic Section Leader Course, got my Corporal rank, though not exactly achieving anything. Continued at the same place to do my Advance Section Leader Course, where I faced one of the toughest times in my life, and yet enjoying it. Had great friends, great experience, great pain and suffering. Yet at the end, the feeling was bitter sweet. It was embarassing though, almost wanted to cry when I left my friends. Awarded the Silver bayonet for coming out the top 10% for my
platoon.

After that, thing's went downhill. Posted to 4th Singapore Infantry Regiment as a Section Commander. 3 months after posted there, went for my Platoon Sergeant Course, just graduated last Thursday. Though, graduating from the course was not one of my proud moments since I hated the course.

So, that's how it goes for now. Surprisingly, alot of things happened the past 1 year I've been in the service. Both happy and sad times. Hard times together and time we'd just slack like nobodies business. And yet, I still feel tired of all this. Maybe, just maybe I do cherish the fact that I met all these people. Maybe I do. Though, I still feel that I'm tired of this. I want to let all this pass by fast so that, I can get on with life. Get on with life.

Guess that's the summary of the thing's that I've went through. Guess the picture's aren't sufficient to tell you the whole story of what happened the past year. Like how we took a helicopter back in Thailand, or how we crossed a river using a rope. I guess there's alot of things, that you can't explain unless you go through it. Period.

arfandi used up his time at 10:51 AM

Monday, September 15, 2008

Honestly, I've been dying to write something on this blog. Just that, everytime when I do, I don't think I have any much things to say, as I sat there, on the chair thinking about the next word I should type. I mean, I know some people would find it interesting to know what goes on in my life. Ok wait, actually it is rather interesting, just that I'm very bad at describing how my life is on a day to day basis. I mean, if I told you that what I do everyday is wake up at 5.30 in the morning, or 4.30 for the month of Ramadhan, then do some activities that even if I try describing it to you under a 1000 word limit will leave you puzzled, I might as well not try to, right?

3 days ago marks the day I've already been in the service for 1 whole year. The heck.

Time really flies when you least expect it. Seriously. I mean, now that 1 year has passed, it made me realise that in another year's time, the clock gear will start moving again. Life will make it's next move. Everything will start to continue transcending time. Not that I haven't been thinking about what I'll be doing after my National Service, just that I guess I'm rather anxious about the prospect of it. Being back in the world, as a civilian, schooling, getting a job, make a living, at least go back everyday to see my beloved and family. To have a normal life.

Mentioning about school, yeah, I'm going back school. Bent between going to NYP or Nafa. To most, the answer is obvious, but to the few, you'll understand what's the issue about. I've been planning on pursuing my passion. I guess, it's a big leap cause seriously, I am abit hesitant due to my lack of self-confidence. Will I make it? Will people accept and appreciate my work? At the rate I'm going, I'm not confident since I barely have time to practice on my drawings. The only time I was able to sketch or doodle is in between lectures, or during the free time in bunk which rarely comes by.

And, I think, I've had enough of this. I'm falling too easily.

arfandi used up his time at 3:23 AM

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