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Friday, September 26, 2008

The only reason I'm updating this much is due to the absence of activity for me to do at home. Surprisingly, I'm staying home since I need to clear up the dust and re-arranged the room for the upcoming Raya. Though, this time around, Raya came about pretty fast since I was spending 2 weeks of it suffering in Platoon Sergeant course. No wonder huh?

It's more presentable now, at least the things around the room aren't so cluttered. Threw away alot of stuff, things that I've never used for a long time, or are just taking too much space. Threw away alot of old things which I was hesitant to throw away the previous year. Finally got about throwing it away.

Yet, that wasn't the purpose of me updating today. I mean the whole, what-the-hell-did-i-do-to-my-room-today. Something striked my thought just a while ago. I've met so much and lost equally much people for 21 years of my life, that it makes me ponder. Like back in Primary School, I had friends like, Azri Zulfarhan, Aizat, Iliyas, Yusri, Salina, Ayu, Hadhinah, Huda and alot more to mention. Azri Zulfarhan, tend to see him around sometimes, in the weirdest places. Aizat, the last time I met him was during a reunion at Ayu's arrival back to Singapore. After that, never actually see him anymore. Iliyas, back then when we had a soccer match, Elkrados against his team. Yusri, ok, I think it has already been a decade since I last saw him. Right after I moved to the current house I'm in, I didn't see him till now. Salina, the last time I saw her, I didn't know how to react. Nuff said. Ayu, when she came back to Singapore after moving to Australia. Wasn't that close to her anyway. Hadhinah, surprisingly, a few months ago. Still contacting. Huda, well she just lives beside Hadhinah. Again, she left me speechless. As in, ask me if you want to know why.

I realised that, somehow, I'm rather regretful for the fact that I tried to erase that chapter in my life. I wonder why. I guess, it's because I don't really hold on to the memory dearly since I didn't exactly achieve anything. I just did well for my studies. Didn't join any ECA, ok fine, I was a librarian. Yet, I don't exactly earn much back in Primary School. There were some people who I wished I mustered enough confidence to have actually strike a chat, cause now it feels like I missed my chance knowing someone like them. Now, I barely remember the faces of my friends back in Primary School. Somehow, I wish I made my life back then more significant. I wish I did.

arfandi used up his time at 6:04 PM