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Saturday, November 29, 2008

Chapter 1

'Why did you threw away everything for some girl you barely knew?' Marie started, finally looking up to face him.

With a pained look on his face, Alfie was stumped for words. If she knew that he’s been keeping back things from her, everything would change. How would Marie react if she knew that he left Rosette for her? The truth can’t be exposed. Definitely, not yet. Still, his heart yearned to tell her the things he withheld for so long. Call him a coward, call him anything you want, but Alfie refuses to tell her the truth.

'I didn't leave Rosette for anyone. Everything, just well, fell apart,' Alfie started, a sigh escaping his lips, hoping this farce could hold, 'You've got it all wrong.'

Silence settled between the two of them. Taking a step back, Alfie tried to compose himself, contemplating what to say next. Marie stood still, listening intently.

'Then, why did you go out with her? That girl, Selene.' said Marie, obviously not convinced with his explanation. Somehow the news of him going out with Selene, did not bode well with her at all. The girl who messed everything up. Selene.

'You ditched me a few days before the whole event,’ said Alfie, brushing a stray hair off his eyes, ‘Sure, I did said I'm fine about you pulling out at the end, but now you're saying that it's wrong of me to have went to the event with Selene?'

'Why her? Why all of people? You could have brought anyone else other than her!' exploded Marie, his answers definitely not what she wanted to hear.

'What do you have against her anyway?'

'I don't have anything against her! I just feel that, why her? Of all the people?'

'You mean it was a mistake for me to have asked her? Why do you hate her so much anyway?' Alfie asked, not believing what he's hearing.

'THAT girl made you this way. As far as I know, you should be angry at her, but hey, I don't even understand why I'm being angry at her instead, when you're not!' shouted Marie, fuming with anger, ‘You’re so selfish, that you never stop to think about her feelings. Rosette’s feelings for goodness sake! While you’re moping around thinking about how you left her, you never spared a thought for Rosette.’

Stumped at her words, Alfie couldn't help feeling hurt.

‘Why does Marie hates her so much anyway? And what does she mean I never spared a thought? Every day and night, even when I decided upon letting her go, I spared her a thought,’ mused Alfie.

The atmosphere between the two of them was tense, and yet, neither of them ready to yield. Alfie knew that whichever decision he made, would put him in the wrong light. He dumped Rosette, and that makes him in the wrong. How can he even try to make out of this one if he can’t even disclose the truth to her? Marie, seemingly still in rage, looks unwilling to reason with Alfie.

‘I have always considered her feelings more than I considered mine! All I did was for Rosette, I never expected anything out of her nor was she indebted to me,’ Alfie’s hand gripping tightly onto the railing, in fear of losing his composure, ‘You did not know what I went through! Not even a fragment of it, and you’re saying that I never spared a thought for Rosette? How arrogant can you be?!’

‘If you had really considered, you wouldn’t have left her. You wouldn’t have left her hanging without any reasons! Get off high horse and start being responsible for what you did!’ shouted Marie, holding her rage in, just enough to not unleash it.

‘And what? Continue on being with her, having to live everyday living a lie? That I’m holding on to her just for the sake of keeping it together?’ continued Alfie, steadily losing his composure in this tirade.

The sudden outburst, silenced Marie for a moment. She’s still not convinced with his explanation. At the moment, nothing will. Overtaken by anger, Marie grabbed her belongings and started to leave in an opposite direction. She’s had enough of this.

‘You’ve always been this way, Alfie. When will you ever change?’

Leaning against the cold wall, clad in nothing but his shirt, the chill starts to seep deep into his flesh. With the whole argument lingering in his thought, it doesn’t help that the coldness of the night is not consoling him. Amused by the irony, Alfie cracked a faint smile. Oh the irony. Being left by the one whom you abandoned everything for. Pushing his hair back, he couldn’t help himself from crying. Whatever left of his heart, broken.

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