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Monday, December 01, 2008

Chapter 2

Flashback

‘You got comfortable with another girl?’ asked Rosette, disbelieved. No preparations could have made her prepared for such a revelation, more so hearing it from the person she trusted the most. ‘Who? Is it someone that I know of?’ she continued, not exactly wanting to know, and yet she needs to know. How contradicting is that?

‘It’s someone that you don’t know — her name’s Selene,’ hesitation in his words, Alfie needed to tell her this, before someone else does. Whether this is the right thing to do right now for his part, he will never know. Maybe, it was a mistake in the first place to have gotten acquainted with Selene, and now he’s in too deep with her. ‘I’m sorry you have to hear this but I don’t want to lie to you anymore. I have no excuse, I — listened to my fickle heart.’

With tears in her eyes, threatening to spill over, Rosette fights hard not to cry in front of him. She promised herself not to cry for things such as this, knowing very well that such a day will come. She was ready for it, and yet, why does it hurt this much? ‘I’m allowed to be at least angry, or sad right now, right?’ mused Rosette. ‘I’m allowed to — right?’

‘I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.’

‘So where do we go from here? Are you expecting me to forgive you?’ said Rosette, looking at him in the eyes, searching for an answer for this whole mess. How this episode ends depends heavily on how he is going to answers this question. ‘Is it even possible for things to go back to the way it was before?’

‘I guess, that there is nothing that I can do, to make you forgive me. I made a mistake, a huge one and I know that it has hurt you beyond what I could ever imagine. I hope you will forgive me — Rosette. For what I’ve done.’ remorse in his voice, expecting a miracle out of this. Any girl would have left him for his despicable act, this act of treason. Yet, Alfie couldn’t let this end this way, without doing anything. If it ends, at least in his heart, he knew that he tried. At least, Rosette hears what he has to say.

‘My mind tells me not to forgive you Alfie but my dumb heart tells me otherwise. I can’t help myself from forgiving you, since I’m in love with you Alfie, no matter how stupid your actions were. But my trust for you, I have none left,’ wiping her tears away, smearing her mascara while doing so, ‘I have none left.’

Alfie couldn’t offer his hand nor his smile. He — is the cause of this. With a forlorn look on his face, Alfie could only look at her. After all those promises he made, to protect her and keep her away from harm and yet, he is what harmed her the most. Emotionally, with his selfish actions. Clasping his hands together, Alfie couldn’t help but feel disappointed in himself. Why did he lose the battle with his emotions? Why did he held Selene in his arms, perchance this outcome? He knew fully well, that his relationship with Rosette isn’t normal. He thought that this time, he’ll be ready for Rosette. That, he will be able to be together with her, with all the restrictions and limitations. Was he wrong? Maybe, he was just too overconfident, too proud to realise that the whole relationship is way beyond his capabilities.

‘That question, about where do we go from here. I — seriously have no idea.’ answered Alfie. ‘I really, have no idea where do we go from here.’

With only silence accompanying them, two people once intertwined, it’s bond unwinding, slowly but definitely. The uncertainty that shrouds them, stayed with them persistently till the end. Once a story, but now, just two separate chapters.

End of flashback

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