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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

When you have to be strong even when you're down. That's not easy to anyone, even Superman has his downtime too. Have you ever been in such a situation?

Well let's not dwell on the past. Even if I'm tempted to whine and complain right now, I guess I'll pass on that thought. It would just sour the mood and make things feel a lot horrible than it already is.

arfandi used up his time at 8:34 PM

Sunday, September 27, 2009

And yesterday we had an open house, meaning the house is opened for the day for any of my relatvies or friends that wishes to visit our humble abode to either have a taste of our food, experience the ambience of test the PR skills of the occupants of my house. So I did set out with an intention that I'd be different this year. I'd exercise more initiative and be more sociable, which I realised at the end of yesterday, that I'm still failing horribly at it. Figures.

Inititially, invites were already sent to whom it may concerned about the open house but I didn't send out mind because we usually just come on another occasion anyway. Furthermore, especially for the Elkrados, it's HAS to be the annual spaghetti at my house as usual. So I didn't invite them yesterday as firstly, there's no spaghetti and secondly, it's chaotic if I did add all those guys into the quota.

All the preparations have been done the night before which yours truly is a definitely a deadweight since I can't cook. Instead I was utilised as the brute strength needed to carry all the heavier items which wasn't that heavy anyway. Heh. Ok maybe they were but I guess I'm just used to carrying heavy useless items in the Army anyway. My room didn't need any cleaning up since I've been religiously cleaning it up everyday during my free time, which I did have in abundance recently. Either way, no one usually enters my room anyway but I decided that this year would be different.

But things just stayed the same anyway. I was stuck in my room, only leaving the room to shake hands with the guest. And you know how the younger generations would want to kiss your hands when you're older which is a tradition, actually freaked me out yesterday. A teenage guy who look almost as old as me tried to kiss the top of my hands but I refused to let him do so cause I felt I'm not THAT old compared to him and he was trying very hard to do what he needed to do while I was trying very hard to STOP him from doing it. At the end, I had to yield. Sheesh, I feel old.

SO the day went on with my mother doing splendidly with her public relations and my sisters doing her part in 'dealing' with the guest while I lugged my butt on the chair in front of the computer refusing any of that 'guest maintanence' process. It's not that I can't speak to people to save myself but I just can't find the right things to say to people that I have no idea what his/her relation to me. It'll be equally bad if I started the topic with a 'who are you?' cause that's the exact thought that runs through my head when I see them. Apart from my raging short term memory that never fails to hand me with the shortest end of the stick, I don't I've even come across them in my life. Well maybe I could have given a curt introduction but that'll just potray me as a cheesy flirt. Cheesy flirt vs Useless deadweight. The latter anytime. Cheesy is just so not me.

It's the same every year anyway. My sister's getting words from their friends that I'm good looking. My mother's friends asking about me whether I'm attached. Even if all I did was just smiled widely, showed my dimples and everything would run by itself. LOL. While they were gossiping about everything under the sun in the living room, I instead would rather indulge in gossiping with a cyberspace friend of mine online. Sniggers.

And with that, the day ended, with me being stuck in my room from lunch till supper with sporadic cameos in the living room just to take food and drinks. Through the sweltering heat pass the beautiful sunsets, I was stuck on my seat.

Today is Sunday. I'll be a guest in another person's openhouse. Let's see what kind of a guest I am then. Heh.

arfandi used up his time at 9:34 AM

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Sometimes, meeting back the people that once matter to you alot awhile back is rather refreshing. Imagine how just one call would spark an encounter with two people that meant so much to me before. Heh.

And yesterday was friday, so I hadn't got anyone to visit the mosque in Choa Chu Kang to perform my friday prayers. Thinking that maybe Hafiz would be free, since we're both done with our National Service, I made a call and as I foretold, he was free. So we made our way to the mosque together, and did what we needed to do and was making our way out when we met Zali. Yearp, small world huh? Ok well tinier since he lives in Boon Lay but still it was quite weird since we never expected him to be there though. Caught a glimpse of Hazmi too but couldn't get anywhere near him, so 'kirim salam' from the heart alright? Hahaa.

Meeting back with these two chaps is surprisingly great. It's weird that there weren't any awkwardness at all, it's like as if we just met a couple of weeks ago. And so, we made our way to Lot 1, and I realised that this post is becoming a 'hey what I did yesterday', we met Zarifah. Ok fine, so that makes 3 people that I haven't been meeting lately. I've been only constantly hanging out with Sadiqin and Rauff that it's not funny anymore. Hahaa.

I can safely say, out of the whole week, that was the first interesting thing that happened in my life. Period.

arfandi used up his time at 2:06 PM

Friday, September 25, 2009

I hope you can understand, the changes that I'm going through. I just hope you will.

I'm getting my life straight. Once this festive season is over, I'm getting a part-time job. I'll save up enough for myself and the things I want to do in the future.

And I hope my friends can learn to stand up for themselves. Sigh.

arfandi used up his time at 8:59 AM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I'm not used to tell the world how I feel. And maybe I shouldn't.

How significant does the world think of me anyway? I don't think much.

arfandi used up his time at 5:11 PM

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